Project: Liberate

About
"Liberate ... to be set free, as from oppression, confinement, or foreign control."

What do you need to be liberated from? What is holding you back from living your life to the fullest? This blog isn't going to solve all, if any, of your problems, but I can only hope that when you visit it you are reminded that there's always something interesting around every corner - as long as you look hard enough.

I am an eighteen year old female living in San Diego, California. I'm young, and like so many others my age, don't know where I'm headed quite yet. I am currently recovering from a very difficult breakup after a very long relationship with someone I called my best friend. I'm lost, I'm human, and perhaps that will make this blog random and without much direction. It's for you, it's for me, it's for anyone in the world who just wants to ... feel ... just wants to live. If there's anything you would like posted on here, or a topic you would like to see discussed, please email the address below.

P.S. The "letters" I write are a kind of personal therapy for me. This hell of a breakup I've gone through has left me in shambles. I write letters to the next person I'm going to be with, I guess so I can feel less lonely. It's silly, but it helps quite a bit. Do you have a letter? Email it to me and I'll post it.

Contact PL

Email: projectliberate@yahoo.com

Letter #1

I know this is going to be slightly strange and perhaps too personal for this blog … but this is something I’ve been doing for a month now and it’s actually helped through this process of being heartbroken and trying to move forward through such a disastrous breakup.

When I am feeling especially low, I grab a piece of paper and start writing a letter to my future boyfriend, husband, whatever. It’s strange, I know. I’d like to post them on this blog … if anyone else is going through a difficult separation and would like to write a letter of this type … why don’t you email it to me? I’d love to post your letter on this blog as well.

Dear future love …? ,

I’ve had a very difficult time with everything that’s happened and I have to say it - I never thought it would come down to this. I’ve been with the same person for so long … how am I going to be able to trust someone again? I’ll admit, I’ve gone on a few dates, but I can’t seem to get past that first one with any of the guys who have taken me out. I know I haven’t found you yet, and I probably won’t for a long time. These wounds seem to be opening again every time I think they’re finally starting to close, to heal. I spent a year trying to make a relationship work when, in reality, every second was leading up to a terrible end, one that haunts me everywhere I go, even in my dreams. What do you think about that? Do you appreciate the way I kept trying, kept forgiving him, despite all he did? Or do you think I’m simply a bad judge of character, another woman blinded by love and dependency, only to be left by the one person I dedicated everything too. Where are you? It’s silly … but every time I get ready for a night out I find myself spending a little more time on my clothes and hair … in case this is the night I get to meet you. It’s sarting to get late … I guess I’m going to get to bed soon. I wish you were here so I could call you and talk for a few minutes, then say goodnight. I’m looking forward to that. I’m looking forward to meeting you, hopefully soon.

sleep well tonight, wherever you are.



October 19, 2009, 1:09am   Comments